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steffiesworld

Sunday, March 19, 2006

steffie's more-or-less stable world: 3.15.06

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*** Steffie's Performances ***

SAT MARCH 25: Opening for Rocky Horror Picture Show,

Labyrinth, 400 Bagley, Detroit

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STEFFIE'S MORE-OR-LESS STABLE WORLD: 3.15.06

I. Upsetting Lyrics

II. SpagFest Burlesque Show

III. Radio Radio

IV. Ides of March

V. Life In Hell

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I. UPSETTING LYRICS

Precious Friends

i didn't mean to upset people with the lyrics, yesterday. i'm fine.

It's just a song.

i AM struggling with very difficult problems pertaining to the transfer of Jam Rag to new owners, which cannot be discussed publicly.

i've lost just about everything over the last two years: my home, my family, my business, my life as an activist, etc. And -- let's face it -- i am just a child.

There are two things left which are really dear to me -- my wife and my surrogate mother -- and i'm desperately trying to hold on to both. The song is a reflection of how it would feel to have those last two candles extinguished; it is just a wisp of the wind away.

i'm NOT suicidal. And that's the problem. i am left trapped, because suicide is not an option.

i look on suicide with serenity, as a blessing ("One of these days i'll find a way to make it right, so i can say goodnight."). But this blessing is withheld from me.

My self-esteem and confidence are shot. And the songwriting is a rare source of pride. So, naturally, i want to share my songs. i don't mean to worry people.

The songs are good -- i know it -- if only for the brutally honest introspection.

There seems to be no end of them; i've written 18 songs since August. And they are getting better and better. "Make It Stop" is a cool tune! And "Your Eyes" is tender, gentle and passionate.

i just never knew i could do this.

Most of the things i write about are experienced, in one way or another, by lots of people. It is wonderful when someone writes, "Gosh steffie, you really express how I feel sometimes."

The lyrics alone are nothing. It makes me sooooo happy when i get a chance to play them for people.

Don't you want to make me happy?!? :-)

* * *

PS: My favorite response was from Paul, who feared suicide and wrote,

> If you say so Stephie, but who will give the non thinkers fits?

Oh dear. i guess i do have an important job to do after all. :-)

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II. SpagFest Burlesque Review

It's so funny -- two years ago no one thought twice if i took off my shirt in public. Now i have a couple of ounces of fatty tissue there -- really NOT MUCH has changed (to my great dismay) -- and yet people are horrified that i am not drowning in shame about my precious breasts and love to show them off.

Gee...and people think >I<>

i DO have lots of shame. i am ashamed of having been cruel or dishonest, or selfish. But my body?!?! i might as well be ashamed of the sunrise.

Anyway, SpagFest will always be one of my happiest memories. The girls treated me like their kid sister. i was primped and pampered. i got to be the center of attention. And the audience gave a MOST rousing ovation, despite my guitar being horrendously out of tune.

i sang a song, "Forever," about my despair over having lost (at the time) my surrogate mother. "My sun has gone dark forever."

A video is forthcoming. If anyone wants to see a pic, let me know.

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III. RADIO STUFF (both courtesy of our Prometheus friends) hannahjs@prometheusradio.org

A. Prometheus Trip to Detroit.

B. Full-Power Non-Commercial Licensing Window To Open

A. The Prometheus Radio Project, a national grassroots organization that

has built LPFM radio stations from New Hampshire to Florida to

California, will hold major workshops in Michigan during the week of

March 27th-April 1st. Expect low power but high intensity

demonstrations of exactly how community radio works, and to learn what

you can do now to bring community radio to Michigan. You can join us at

the Mexican Town Center on the 27th at 6:30 pm, at a meeting in Ann

Arbor the evening of the 28th, or contact Prometheus so they can join

you at your organization today.

(note from steffie: i'm looking for a ride to the Mexican Town event.)

B. If you have questions about the information below, email our

technical director, Andy Gunn, at andy@prometheusradio.org, or email

Pete Tridish at petri@prometheusradio.org !)

Greetings from the Prometheus Radio Project! This note is to inform you

that the FCC is preparing to open a FULL POWER

NON-COMMERCIAL/EDUCATIONAL licensing window.

A full guide from on this will appear in the next month or so, but for

now we want you to have a few basic facts to help you determine whether

you should be gearing up to apply for a full power license or if you

should just ignore this whole thing.

Non-Commercial Educational (NCE) full power radio licensing had been

hopelessly complicated for the past 15 years, and frozen for more than

five. The FCC has finally made improvements to the application system,

and the first real opportunity to apply since the late 80's will be

coming up soon.

The lay of the land:

-- Very soon, the FCC will open a window for new, full power

non-commercial educational (NCE) radio frequencies.

-- We don.t know yet exactly when, but there will be some warning --

The FCC will give notice announcing when the window will be open,

typically 30 to 60 days in advance.

-- The window itself will last five days.

-- You can only file your application during this 5-day window, so

everything needs to be ready to go.

-- If you do not apply now, it will probably be many, many years before

there will be another chance. To make matters worse, any frequency

worth having will probably be taken in this window of opportunity.

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IV. IDES OF MARCH

It's the anniversary, today, of the ugly, brutal encounter with my father over the discovery (my joy, his disgust and rage) of my true gender identity.

A curt response from him two weeks ago to a letter i sent recently makes it clear i am out of their family forever.

My birth family has disintegrated since i found steffie inside, and i cannot help but wonder how much is my fault...or at least how much is an indirect result of steffie reborn after 35 years of premature burial.

Even as a five-year-old, i remember thinking about how passive my grandfather behaved around dad. It couldn't have always been that way.

i understood that this is how people grow old -- when the torch is passed from one generation to the next. And i did NOT want my father to grow old and weak. So i vowed to never grow up, to never take his place.

But fate is a relentless hunter.

And it is always hiding where you least expect it.

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> Life in hell

> In California prisons, an unconventional gender identity can be like

> an added sentence

>

> By Tali Woodward

> tali@sfbg.com

> San Francisco Bay Guardian, CA

> Mar. 15, 2006 - Mar. 21, 2006 . Vol. 40, No. 24

>

> http://www.sfbg.com/40/24/cover_life.html

>

> Rosa casts her dark eyes downward and then looks up from under wispy

> bangs to say matter-of-factly, "I've been raped six times.

>

> "At one time I was raped by five individuals," she continues in

> slightly tentative English.

>

> Rosa wasn't born female, but she says she was very young when she

> realized "I was special." Today, she doesn't just "pass" as a woman

> - it's hard to imagine how anyone would see this person with the

> bewitching eyes and feather-soft voice as anything else.

>

> Except that for the past eight years, Rosa has lived in men's

> prisons.

>

> The way the California Department of Corrections and Rehabilitation

> (CDCR) sees it, Rosa has a penis, and that makes her a man. Never

> mind that she hasn't seen herself as male for decades, or that she's

> been taking feminizing hormones since her 16th birthday. Rosa, who

> is serving 15-to-life for stabbing a man she says was trying to kill

> her, was never able to afford sex-reassignment surgery. The one time

> she came close to saving enough money, she spent it helping her

> sister set up a fruit stand in Mexico. So the prison system put her

> in with the men....

>

> A SILENT CRISIS

> Transgender women are more likely to end up in prison than virtually

> anyone else. The oft-quoted statistic about African American men -

> that one in four has a history of incarceration - is dwarfed by the

> available stats on people who are male-to-female, or MTF. A San

> Francisco Department of Public Health survey conducted in 1997 found

> that almost two thirds of MTF respondents had been incarcerated.

> More than 30 percent had spent some time behind bars during the

> preceding 12 months.

>

> Most people agree that the high incarceration rate is due mainly to

> the difficulty trans people have finding and keeping work (see

> "Transjobless," page 13). To survive, they often turn to sex work,

> drug dealing, or other illegal forms of moneymaking - and, in the

> process, greatly increase their risk of arrest...

>

> HOUSING QUANDRIES

...> "Would you put your daughter in a locked room with 11 or 12 men and

> say, 'Fend for yourself'?" she asks.

>

> Ele Tsu now lives in a cell but says that when she was assigned to a

> dorm, "I was lucky if I could have one or two nights a week where I

> wasn't bothered....

>

>

> "Rapes occur with frequency," Ele Tsu told us. "And we've learned to

> keep our big mouths shut because what happens is we are victimized

> again. We're called liars; people say, 'You enticed them, you didn't

> have your bra on, you were dressed in an overly feminine condition.

> You asked for it.'"

>

> When sexual assault is reported, inmates say, the victim and the

> perpetrator get the same treatment: Both are locked up in

> Administrative Segregation, or Ad Seg.

>

>

> ABUSE AND CARE

> ..."They treat you like 'that,' 'it,' or 'whatever he is,' " Rosa said

> of her fellow inmates. She's usually referred to as "he" and often

> called a "faggot," despite her womanly bearing and the fact that she

> is involved with an inmate who considers himself straight. There's a

> general attitude that "you decided to be like this, [you] brought it

> upon yourself," Rosa says. "Nah - I didn't choose to be rejected. I

> didn't choose to be humiliated. I didn't choose to be beat up. I

> didn't choose to be raped."

>

> According to some, harassment is just as likely to come from prison

> staff. Lee says different people in different prisons have told him

> the guards will routinely demean them - over the PA system.

>

* * *

>

> http://www.sfbg.com/40/24/news_ed_panic.html

>

...But AB 1160...would limit the use of so-called gay panic or

> (more frequently) trans panic defenses: the argument that a killer

> was driven to rage by the discovery that a person who appeared to be

> female was, in fact, biologically male, and thus is not fully

> responsible for the murder...

>

> More recently, the defendants in the Gwen Araujo case argued they

> were guilty only of manslaughter because they had been unable to

> control their anger upon learning that Araujo was biologically male.

>

> When you think about it, the claim is pretty bizarre: Not even the

> most crass and sleazy defense lawyer these days would try to argue a

> killing was less heinous just because the victim was black. But the

> Araujo case, which first ended in a hung jury before two of the

> three defendants were eventually found guilty of second-degree

> murder (a third pleaded guilty to manslaughter), shows just how

> utterly marginalized transgender people remain in society, even in

> the liberal Bay Area.

Love to all my precious friends,

steffie

MICHIGAN COMMUNITIES FIGHT FOR NEW COMMUNITY RADIO STATIONS:

MICHIGAN COMMUNITIES FIGHT FOR NEW COMMUNITY RADIO STATIONS:

Five years after low power radio service established by the FCC, only one low power station within 30 miles of Detroit

Contact: Libby Reinish 215.727.9620, libby@prometheusradio.org

Hannah Sassaman 215.727.9620, hannahjs@prometheusradio.org

The families, friends, and neighbors of southeastern Michigan work hard in their everyday lives to build strong towns and communities. But even though the Federal Communications Commission has established a low power FM (LPFM) radio service that churches, schools, and community groups use all across the country, only one group within 30 miles of Detroit has a low power FM radio license.

"Working people in and around Detroit struggle to get their voices heard, and to keep up with the local elections and decisions that affect their lives and the lives of their families," says Elena Herrada, an organizer with the Latino Workers Center in Southwestern Detroit. "We are excited to learn how a community radio station might help us every day in our work, and help our neighborhoods come together."

"Hundreds of people across Michigan have been fighting for new community radio licenses for years," says Libby Reinish, a founder of a low power station in western Massachusetts, and an organizer with the Prometheus Radio Project. "We are hearing that families are tired of irrelevant, violent 'news', and that they know there is lots of room on the dial in and around Detroit for local, independent radio."

The low power FM (LPFM) radio service was adopted by the Federal Communications Commission in January of 2000. About 675 of these stations, broadcasting at 100 watts or less, over a radius of just a few miles, are on the air serving communities across the country right now. Congressman John Dingell, of the 15th district west of Detroit, and Congressman Fred Upton, whose district covers the southern coast of Lake Michigan and towns like Kalamazoo, both sit on the Energy and Commerce Committee in the House of Representatives, which has the power to act on this legislation.

"In 2000, Congressman Dingell voted to allow low power stations to start building in rural communities across this country, while the FCC determined whether or not there was room for these stations in cities like Detroit and towns like Ann Arbor and Dearborn," said Hannah Sassaman, Program Director at Prometheus. "Now that we have an independent, $2.2 million study proving that there is room for these vital stations, Michigan is asking their legislators to expand this service to Michigan's churches, schools, and nonprofit groups."

The Prometheus Radio Project, a national grassroots organization that has built LPFM radio stations from New Hampshire to Florida to California, will hold major workshops in Michigan during the week of March 27th-April 1st. Expect low power but high intensity demonstrations of exactly how community radio works, and to learn what you can do now to bring community radio to Michigan. You can join us at the Mexican Town Center on the 27th at 6:30 pm, at a meeting in Ann Arbor the evening of the 28th, or contact Prometheus so they can join you at your organization today.

--

courtesy of steffie

stephanie angeline loveless

steffie's shrinking world: 3.13.06

It would seem that the only truly unforgivable crime, in this miserable world, is love.

Your eyes...

Your eyes sustain my life

Wish i...

Could dry them when you cry

Your touch...

Is like a junkie's fix

Each time...

I sink deeper in the mix

Your smile...

Prettier than the first sunrise

Your laugh...

Is enough to hypnotize

Your dreams...

Grow dusty on a shelf

It seems...

Always helping someone else

Your eyes!

Your eyes sustain my life

Your tears...

Your tears are always near

Alone...

So far away from home

Your love...

It heals my deepest cut

With you....

My wounds are all sewn shut

So kind...

You give and never take

You cause...

My heart to gently wake

Your scorn...

Wish i was never born

One frown...

And in despair i drown

Your eyes!

Your eyes sustain my life

Your eyes!

Your eyes sustain my life

Your eyes!

Your eyes sustain my life

Your eyes!

oh, oh oh oh...

steffie's world: 3.3.06 -- Big Community Radio Event Coming Our Way!!!

Precious Friends

I. Prometheus Radio Project Coming to Detroit!!!

II. SpagTeaze Burlesque Saturday Night

III. Anti-War Protest

III. Tearful Reunion For Steffie :-)

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I. PROMETHEUS RADIO PROJECT COMING TO DETROIT!

No one has done more for the cause of LPFM (and other forms of community radio) than our friends at Prometheus. They are absolutely amazing -- for example, a couple years ago this tiny grassroots group alone did what 435 Congresspeople (among plenty of others) were incapable of: blocking in court one of the worst and most dangerous revisions to media ownership rules in this country in decades. We are talking about a handful of scruffy activists with a budget of a few thousand dollars, and they stopped the Media Titans in their tracks!

Prometheus been all over the country and much of the globe, helping the poorest of poor set up their own stations. They helped lead the way with the creation of LPFM in the late '90s. And, after just about everyone else dropped out of the fight (including yours truly) they STAYED in the arena, winning important victories along the way.

What a fabulous group -- and they are coming to Detroit!!!

Let's all make sure their Detroit visit is their best ever. Will you PLEASE pass the word to everyone you know who is interested in community radio? Will you help organize a workshop, etc.? Will you help notify the media, etc.?

Thanks in advance, from steffie. See below....

(From Prometheus)

Hey everybody -- Prometheus is coming to Michigan, and we'd love to see

you! We're on the road to let you know what you can do to expand low

power FM radio to your community, and we'll be there with radio

lunchboxes, barnraising movies, and tons of fun. Can you meet with us

between March 27th and April 1st? We'll be in and around Detroit, Ann

Arbor, Ypsilanti, Dearborn, and maybe we'll go all the way to Kalamazoo -- but we need to hear from you first.

Right now Michigan is -the key- to your ability to get new community radio stations in your town. Two Michigan Congressmen, John Dingell and Fred Upton, hold powerful seats on the House Commerce Committee. John Dingell was responsible for the law which limits low power FM radio to small towns and keeps new stations from being given out. And Upton, a Republican leader on Commerce, works closely with him.

We will be traveling all around Congressional District 15 (plus Detroit

and beyond) because these legislators are essential to getting the

"Enhance and Protect Local Community Radio Act" passed. If that bill (HR 3731) or another like it were passed by the House of Representatives, and signed into law, the FCC would be able to give out licenses in your area! Schools, churches, community groups could all apply to have their own radio stations.

We'd love to stop by and say hello while we are in town, and maybe even do a workshop or two! So please, send me your ideas! Is your group having a meeting around this time? Would you like to have us bring our lunchbox transmitters and do a little demonstration? Come talk to your class about media literacy? Or show our movies at an evening benefit for both our groups?

Looking forward to hearing from you!

Libby Reinish

Prometheus Radio Project

(215)727-9620

libby@prometheusradio.org

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II. SPAGTEAZE BURLESQUE

Don't forget -- the big show is this Saturday, March 4, 9:00 pm at the Labyrinth, 400 Bagley, Detroit, in the Ramada Hotel. Your little girl will sing and play guitar, as part of a huge extravaganza -- all very classy, though. This is not some cheap 'n sleazy sex show. It is old-style burlesque, and you will love it.

Many blessings to Lisa, Danny, Laura, Kelly, Melanie and everyone who has been so kind to me!

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III. STEFFIE TO PERFORM AT ANTI-WAR PROTEST/RALLY

The lesson is that groveling works. i begged to get on this event, and the organizers finally relented!

* Sat. March 11: Anti-War Protest/Rally (steffie's birthday!!!), Majestic, Detroit

Look for more details soon.

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III. TEARFUL REUNION FOR STEFFIE :-)

No -- not with my family. That seems, more than ever, to be dead and forever. God knows i've tried, but they insist on seeing my gender issues as something i am "doing to them," rather than what it is -- a recognized medical disorder suffered by many tens of thousands.

No...steffie is exploding with JOY because she finally got to see the precious woman for whom her heart has been breaking so horribly the last six weeks, the inspiration for ten of my 19 songs, the one who talked me out of suicide in September -- the surrogate mother in my life. (We don't name names in this newletter, do we?)

Things turned badly between us in January. My feelings deeply hurt over a trifling issue, i responded with vicious words that -- ironically enough -- were almost exactly those used by my father which made me hate him so much.

There is a lesson in there somewhere, don't you think?

i thought i'd never see my Morning Star again, and have been in deep depression ever since. (Well...i've got a bunch of new songs to show for it, my best ever people say. So that's the silver lining.)

Then -- word came that her boyfriend would be stopping by last night around 6:30, to drop off some lingering materials. Maybe she would be coming along. Maybe they wouldn't even ring the bell but just leave everything on the back porch, as i was told.

Knowing that i would die every day for the rest of my life if i missed this final one-in-a-million chance to see her -- even for just a minute -- i parked myself on the front porch at 6:20. And waited.

And waited.

And waited and waited and waited...

Do you know how COLD it was last night?!?!? i was a mess.

i went inside to use the bathroom around 9:15 when all of a sudden there was a knock on the door. Oh god oh god oh god!!!

There was her boyfriend, with some boxes. My puppy-dog eyes told the tale and he offered, "Yes, she came along. No, she is waiting in the car," which was on the street. My heart sank deeper than the Grand Canyon as i helped him bring in the boxes, my knees giving out with every step.

A few minutes later -- he was gone.

i must have looked utterly pathetic. i sure felt like it!

i was wondering how i was going to get through the awful lonely night, when, suddenly.....the doorbell rang!!!

i didn't know what to expect, but i ran and opened the door.....

And there she was!!!!

Oh god oh god oh god oh god oh god oh god

...she managed to say "Hi steffie, how are...." before i'd leapt throught the doorway, embracing her as if it was the last thing i'd ever do. Sobbing, shaking (i HAD been out in the freezing cold for three hours), i held her tight.

And she held me too, caressing me gently and soothing like a child. Like HER child...

Which is what i really am. She came into my life only days after mom was buried and she is my mother now. And i need her as much as i need anything.

That's what my heart says.

i know this doesn't seem very important, compared to things like stopping a vicious war, promoting media democracy, etc.

But my world has suddenly been put right again. She is the sun in my universe, and my sun had gone cold and dark -- and i thought forever.

But now she is back!!!!

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Forever

stephanie loveless

My sun's gone dark forever

Nothing more will ever

Take her place again

Empty silence for me now

Nothing matters anyhow

It's over

Stars frozen in my sky

As if they don't know why

And nor do i

Crushed by the darkness

Now you're gone

Hunted by shadows

From now on

Look through my window

Nothing's there

Nothing but silence

Waiting for me

waiting for me

Waiting waiting waiting waiting

My world has just stopped turning

But my heart's forever burning

Frozen

I'm so cold

And all alone

Don't imagine love

Will come my way again

* * *

My sun's gone dark forever

Nothing more will ever

Take her place...

forever

forever

forever

forever

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stephanie angeline loveless

STEFFIE'S WORLD: Feb. 28 06

STEFFIE'S WORLD: Feb. 28 06

I. Steffie's Big Break!!!

II. SPAGTeaze Burlesque

III. Breakfast With Dad

IV. Camp Trans!

V. "Unzip Me"

VI. Erotic Poetry & Music Fest

VII. 52 Things

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I. STEFFIE'S BIG BREAK

Oh god -- within the next 72 hours, i expect to announce the Big Break of my career. Want to place bets that i will find a way to blow it between now and then?!?!?

By the way, my band looks to finally be coming together! If all goes well with the musicians we've found, we just need a drummer to be complete. And you will be most surprised; these are all the highest-caliber musicians. (i'm in the band because of my body and because i know where to get the drugs...just kidding.)

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II. SPAGTEAZE BURLESQUE!!!

Sat. March 4, 9:00 pm; Labyrinth, in the Ramada Hotel (same bldg as City Club), 400 Bagley, Detroit

What a fabulous show this is going to be! 20+ GORGEOUS girls (i am the only t-girl) flying in from all over the country. Plus a bunch of special surprises. You just won't believe it.

i will perform one of my latest songs, "Forever." In fact, it will be the public debut of what may be my best song yet. But the big attraction is the rest of the show!

i do love to get naked when i perform. Get off my back! :-) My blossoming femininity is a God-given miracle occuring inside me every single moment. How can i possibly be less than utterly ecstatic?

And...that other thing. :-) When we used to talk about a musician who wasn't very good, we'd say "When it comes to playing guitar, Joe is such a nice guy!!" In steffie's case, it goes, "As far as her singing, steffie sure has a great body!"

i am proud of my body, and have worked very hard to keep it nice. Those who asked for photos from my recent nude photo shoot seemed to like it! (Ask and ye shall receive...) But my years are running out so i am going to enjoy it NOW.

And i'm also growing proud of my singing voice -- that has taken even more work, but it's really starting to develop. It's only in the last few weeks, since early February, that i've really been able to find that sweet spot in the very center of the note, where the sound becomes rich and joyful. My recent recording -- in a REAL studio -- came off rather nice. In another six months of hard work, i think i will be a respectable singer. For now -- i practice one song over and over and over, so that i can perform it adequately.

The dress rehearsal for Spag was last Saturday, and it was one of the happiest days of my life. The girls adopted me like a kid sister, helping me design an outfit, etc. Kelly, Danny, Laura, Lisa, Melanie and all the others -- you are the very best!

i'm making a bunch of new friends at the City Club/Labyrinth, and lined up two more shows that night.

God bless Wendy Kahr for, once again, saving the day. Wendy has been a dream come true recently, helping with my music in the most important ways. She drives me to the shows, took me to the recording studio, bought me a pickup for my guitar, along with a million other gifts, and basically is an all-around angel in my life right now. Things would be going much worse right now without you around, Wendy.

i hope to see all my friends on Saturday! And you will certainly see a whole lot of me...:-)

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III. BREAKFAST WITH DAD

Thanks to everyone who helped with advice about the reunion letter i recently sent to my father. But all that emotional anguish was for nothing -- he never even got the damn thing! Apparently snagged by some spam filter or something, oh well. The bright side is that when i wrote him back, i had the benefit of your collective wisdom, which basically amounted to -- "Keep your big mouth SHUT, steffie!"

No kidding -- it's good advice for me.

So my second letter was brief. i mean BRIEF.

And it led to finally seeing my father again after almost two years now to the day.

i still haven't seen anyone else in my family since finding stephanie inside. So many wonder why i have gone off on this wild streak -- well, when you find your roots have been suddenly and utterly severed, you might behave in rather the same fashion.

Anyway....the breakfast was profoundly disappointing.

i think we both left the diner reminded that this other person is someone we do NOT want in our lives anymore.

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IV. CAMP TRANS!

i've been invited to play Camp Trans this summer!!! Oh god, it's a big opportunity for me. This is a huge festival up in the middle of the lower peninsula. It is a counter-fest to the Michigan Womens Fest, which bans m-2-f transsexuals.

Their silly motto is "Women Born Women Only." Well, girls like me are born with brain structures which resemble that of a woman, and we often have extremely feminine bodies (i did). Our hearts and souls are COMPLETELY that of a woman. Sometimes we also have the xx chromosomes. So i feel sincere about saying i was born a woman. God knows i tried to make it as a man for 44 years and it sure as hell was not going to work. No, their slogan should be "Women Born With Vaginas Only."

Plenty of us resent this, and so Camp Trans was born, perhaps 12-15 years ago. It is located within a mile or two of that other fest, and every year it has grown and grown. Camp Trans attracts high quality entertainment from all over the country.

And this year, little steffie gets to join them on stage!!!

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V. MY LATEST SONG, "UNZIP ME"

Why, it is a true story, every word of it. This is what happened to me on the night of Aug 26, 2005, just ten days after mom was buried, and six days after my most serious suicide attempt. It's a song about rebirth and regeneration, masquerading as a balls-out sex rocker. What fun!

And it's about that same woman for whom i've written eight of my last nine songs, and over half of all my songs entirely.

Unzip Me

stephanie loveless

(written by the 14-year-old girl inside)

my momma died

i cried and cried

i tried to hide

i really wanted to kill me

there was a show

wanted to go

i didn't know

who it was who would take me

you were so nice

you wrote back twice

you melt the ice

you even offered to dress me

it was my worst

but what a burst

it was my first

real date as steffie

we swarmed the floor and the music roared

i danced so hard and the sweat just poured

shake out the blame and all of the shame, then,

my heart exploded when,

suddenly --

i felt you unzip me....

* * *

my dress came down

it hit the ground

my love was found

and in that moment you owned me

the people stared

i didn't care

not even there

only want you to touch me

you held my hips

and kissed my lips

i lost my grip

you whispered soft and sweetly

your pretty eyes

they magnetized

i realized

that i was yours completely

forever now i'll always be in your reach

you might as well put on a collar and leash

you own my soul, i'm in your total control

don't know how good it feels,

it's just unreal --

when you unzip me

* * *

no sense of time

i lost my mind

and that's just fine

it only got me in trouble

i never knew

a girl like you

what could i do

you had me seeing double

later that night

i told my wife

she laughed and smiled

always glad when i'm happy

i don't know why

it had to die

it's time to cry

i'll always love you completely

i had to go and spoil all of our fun

want you forever but now it's done

i beg and plead but i will never succeed

give anything to have you back again

why won't you unzip me?

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VI. EROTIC POETRY & MUSIC FEST

Oh god, i feel terrible -- i really let down the promoters for this show. My performance was just not up to par. Wendy said there was a problem with the PA system too. i couldn't tell. i couldn't hear a note of my guitar (thus, the new pickup which is making all the difference). But there is no one more to blame than myself. i just couldn't hit the notes dead on for the first verse, and i lost the audience's focus.

A handful of people were talking loudly through my entire set, which really disrupted my concentration.

But everyone was wonderfully kind. Thank you for the bra and panties, Linda!!!

And, as is typical, a handful of people seemed to really "get it" with my music and what i'm trying to do. They all wanted CDs, and spoke breathlessly to me after the show.

Some of the boys were distinctly uncomfortable around me. i am growing quite used to this. You know -- i've had boys in my bedroom, and they find me extremely attractive (boys have that little indicator, you know...).

But the same boy, out with his friends the next day, will act as if i am a disgusting freak.

And people wonder why i am SO FUCKING ANTI-SOCIAL and act so "crazy!" Well -- fuck the lot of you. These kind of daily humiliations have a corrosive effect, and leave one feeling alienated, reckless -- and wild.

i ran into a bit of this at the Fest. Well, every other performer was drooling erotica, so it was entirely appropriate for me to strip down to the bare essentials. And the boys liked it -- but they SURE don't want anyone to know it. So they go out of their way to be rude and distant to me.

And that's what life is like for a transsexual.

i'm not looking for your pity -- i'm trying to educate you, because there are a lot of girls like me.

And ALL of us are different in one way or another...

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VII 52 THINGS...

http://www.nctequality.org/

52 Things You Can Do for Transgender Equality

Achieving our goal of transgender equality requires activism at the local, state and national levels. While NCTE focuses on federal policies, we strongly support and encourage the vital work of grassroots activists. Each week during 2006, we will feature an idea for action that you can take at a local level. Some will be challenging, some will be simple; all are effective ideas and we will include links, resources and thoughts to help you get started. Some are things you can do on your own, while others are ideas for local groups to work on. We hope that you will take on projects that spark your interest and that meet a need in your community as we work together for equality for all people.

#7 Create and publicize a calendar of local events and encourage people to attend them

Ever feel frustrated when you just heard about a great event that happened last weekend? Wonder how newcomers could be better served in finding out about community happenings? Want to show community members, politicians, funders and others all of the things that are going on in your area? Here’s a great way to get the word about events in your area:

Create a calendar of all the transgender related events happening in your local community. That makes it much easier for people to find all of the events that might interest or help them and builds a sense of unity among the different groups. Having this kind of information readily available makes things more convenient for everyone and provides newcomers with an easy way to get involved and informed.

If you organize a calendar on your webpage or your group’s webpage, it also drives traffic to your site from people who might not have visited before. It can raise your group’s profile in your local area and help you be seen as an organization that serves the community.

There are a number of software programs available that can help you build a calendar for either print or a webpage. Many of them are easy to use and may already be on your computer (check for calendar templates on your word processing, webpage or publishing software). Contact groups in your area and ask them to send you the dates of their meetings, social events and conferences, along with contact information and a link to their websites. Then put them together to form a community calendar.

To give you some ideas and get you started, here are a couple of examples of community groups that are doing this:

TransgenderMichigan, which has a calendar with many local events from a

variety of groups Transgender Crossroads, a regional calendar of events happening in the Midwest

Then encourage people you know to support the events in your community.

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Hugs to all my wonderful friends!!!

steffie

STEFFIE'S WORLD: 2.23.06

STEFFIE'S WORLD: 2.23.06

My life is a remake of Woody Allen's "Broadway Danny Rose," in which i play all the parts...

Just a couple quick items today. But soooo much to tell you when i get a chance. Come see me tonight at Just 4 Us in Ferndale, starts at 7:00 pm:

I. Anti-War Protest

II. Nude Photo Shoot :-)

III. New Songs

IV. 52 Things...

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I. ANTI WAR RALLY

Children of the wild unborn dream....

On Saturday March 11th, 2006--we have organized and are hosting an

Anti-Iraqi war protest/rally on the eve of the anniversary of this

contemporary Vietnam. This event will take place in Detroit at the

Majestic Theatre complex--(Magic Stick).

In an effort to raise awareness to many important political and social

issues, and to raise the volume of our disapproval of the current

policies and policy makers here in America, we will attempt to create

a strong show of unity within our own community in hopes of

perpetuating energy towards the distant hope of real change...at any

cost...the new dawn horizon...the new revolutionary war.... the

conscious awakening that must occur if we truely wish to reverse this

unthinkable direction our culture has taken.

This gathering should have the integrity of a REAL protest/rally in

which we would expect people attending to bring hand held signs,

information to share with others, and be prepared for some politically

outspoken speeches and performances.

Any persons who might have media affiliations to either local papers,

television, or radio, and whom might be interested in helping to

promote this protest, PLEASE do so! And contact us with any questions

or concerns ASAP!

Furthermore, any persons who might be interested in being a part of

the street team for promoting and helping organize please let us know

asap! We will need this to become a community effort if we want to

shake the cage that traps us all!

ANTI-WAR PROTEST RALLY FOR A NEW AMERICAN REVOLUTION

Saturday March 11th, 2006

7pm

The MAGIC STICK (4120 Woodward, Detroit Michigan )

www.majesticdetroit.com

Hosted by: QUESTIONS

with additional performances and speeches by:

VELVET AUDIO (Siddhartha)

FRIENDS OF DENNIS WILSON

JAWBONE

THE DEAD BODIES

BAD FACES CLAN

FREER

With more performances and guest poets/speakers TBA soon....

We will have an OFFICIAL press release VERY soon in the coming

days.... stay tuned for the latest!

.....and the people shall rise....

.....and the people shall rise....

Contact:

Kim Paris

http://www.SinisterFoxy.com

www.myspace.com/sinisterfoxy)

kimparis@gmail.com

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II. NUDE PHOTO SHOOT

Yes! i did it. And it was gorgeous fun. i loved every moment. It was just a delight to traipse around totally butt naked in front of everyone. And they loved my body. They want me to come in to the studio to do more. So steffie was very happy. :-)

If you want to see a pic, let me know.

And...oh, it's so funny...and it's happened both times now that i've agreed to an erotic photo shoot. Both times the photographers went out of their way to express their homo/trans-phobia in advance. The first kept going on and on about how it disgusts him to think about kissing a man. This time, it was largely the same.

But -- both times -- the photographers utterly lost their composure. That first poor fellow jumped all over me, and couldn't keep his tongue out of my mouth. i just laid back and enjoyed myself while his wife kept shooting.

And now, again! We shot 96 frames and, around number 80, i began to feel very sensuous. i was kind of writhing on the sheets when, before i knew it, i was being mauled by another fellow who only an hour before was loudly proclaiming his aversion to girls like me. It was a delight -- an utterly spontaneous and intense sexual experience.

Brothers and sisters -- there is more than one way to change people's hearts and minds about gender dignity!

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III. NEW SONGS

i'm sooo proud of "Forever," with its romantically haunting melody and chord combination. Of course, you all know who it is about. "You Forgot About Me" plays on the same sorrow, but then i try to find a similar sadness in the hearts of first my parents and then Sue. It's sung with a wistful chuckle, if there is such a thing. :-)

Forever

stephanie loveless

My sun's gone dark forever

Nothing more will ever

Take her place again

Empty silence for me now

Nothing matters anyhow

It's over

Stars frozen in my sky

As if they don't know why

And nor do i

Crushed by the darkness

Now you're gone

Hunted by shadows

From now on

Look through my window

Nothing's there

Nothing but silence

Waiting for me

waiting for me

Waiting waiting waiting waiting

My world has just stopped turning

But my heart's forever burning

Frozen

I'm so cold

And all alone

Don't imagine love

Will come my way again

My sun's gone dark forever

Nothing more will ever

Take her place...

forever

forever

forever

forever

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You Forgot About Me

stephanie loveless

You forgot about me

Checking off your lists and making all your plans

You forgot about me...

Once upon a time i thought there was a place for me

All your dreams and plans included steffie

Least that's what i thought but now i see

Faraway eyes are focused on other things, not me

Such a busy girl, no time for me, no need...

Mom and dad, there was a time we were family

Let it slip away so far away yeah

Had to get away, so now you sing

Faraway eyes are focused on other things, not me

Such a busy girl, no time for us, no need...

You forgot about us

Checking off your lists and making all your plans

You forgot about us...

Stephanie, i know you have so many things to do

But i've given you my life so don't ignore me

All i want is just to have you here

Faraway eyes are focused on other things, not me

Such a busy girl, no time for Sue, no need...

You forgot about me

...steffie!

Checking off your lists and making all your plans

You forgot about me...

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IV. 52 THINGS...

http://www.nctequality.org/

52 Things You Can Do for Transgender Equality

Achieving our goal of transgender equality requires activism at the local, state and national levels. While NCTE focuses on federal policies, we strongly support and encourage the vital work of grassroots activists. Each week during 2006, we will feature an idea for action that you can take at a local level. Some will be challenging, some will be simple; all are effective ideas and we will include links, resources and thoughts to help you get started. Some are things you can do on your own, while others are ideas for local groups to work on. We hope that you will take on projects that spark your interest and that meet a need in your community as we work together for equality for all people.

#6 Plan an Art Show of Works by Trans Artists

Jordy Jones, artist and event producer writes, "In the last few years, there has been a great proliferation of transgender visibility in the media.

Mainstream representations of trans-people are on the increase. From the

Discovery channel to daytime television, the images and lives of real

trans-people pull in viewers curious for a glimpse of these ‘exotic’ life forms. Sympathetic representations by Hilary Swank, Felicity Huffman and other non-trans-people draw praise from trans and non-trans groups alike. As sympathetic as some of these representations may be, they still cannot have the immediacy, resonance and clarity of vision as work by trans artists can. Why ask Maury…or even Felicity what it is like to be trans when you can go the source? Plan an art show of works by trans artists and help further transgender equality."

You can inspire your local community and give visibility to trans artists by holding an art show. Ask local artists if they will help you identify a venue to hold the event and plan it. Make sure that you think about how to keep the art work safe. Publicize it well and consider holding a special event for the opening of the show. You can include widely varying types of art, including paintings, drawings, photography, sculpture, prints, film, spoken word and more.

Consider this inspiring, and beautiful, way to further transgender equality.

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Hugs to all,

steffie

song - unzip me

Unzip Me

stephanie loveless

(a true story, written by the 14-year-old girl inside)

my momma died

i cried and cried

i tried to hide

i really wanted to kill me

there was a show

wanted to go

i didn't know

who it was who would take me

you were so nice

you wrote back twice

you melt the ice

you even offered to dress me

it was my worst

but what a burst

it was my first

real date as steffie

we swarmed the floor and the music roared

i danced so hard and the sweat just poured

shake out the blame and all of the shame, then,

my heart exploded when,

suddenly --

i felt you unzip me....

* * *

my dress came down

it hit the ground

my love was found

and in that moment you owned me

the people stared

i didn't care

not even there

only want you to touch me

you held my hips

and kissed my lips

i lost my grip

you whispered soft and sweetly

your pretty eyes

they magnetized

i realized

that i was yours completely

forever now i'll always be in your reach

you might as well put on a collar and leash

you own my soul, i'm in your total control

don't know how good it feels,

it's just unreal --

when you unzip me

* * *

no sense of time

i lost my mind

and that's just fine

it only got me in trouble

i never knew

a girl like you

what could i do

you had me seeing double

later that night

i told my wife

she laughed and smiled

always glad when i'm happy

i don't know why

it had to die

it's time to cry

i'll always love you completely

i had to go and spoil all of our fun

want you forever but now it's done

i beg and plead but i will never succeed

give anything to have you back again

why won't you unzip me?

song - forever

Forever

stephanie loveless

My sun's gone dark forever

Nothing more will ever

Take her place again

Empty silence for me now

Nothing matters anyhow

It's over

Stars frozen in my sky

As if they don't know why

And nor do i

Crushed by the darkness

Now you're gone

Hunted by shadows

From now on

Look through my window

Nothing's there

Nothing but silence

Waiting for me

waiting for me

Waiting waiting waiting waiting

My world has just stopped turning

But my heart's forever burning

Frozen

I'm so cold

And all alone

Don't imagine love

Will come my way again

* * *

My sun's gone dark forever

Nothing more will ever

Take her place...

forever

forever

forever

forever

song - make it stop

Make It Stop

stephanie loveless

lights

turn out the lights

let it be night

let it be over

sound

don't make a sound

just go around

let it be over

please

don't want to see

don't want to be

let it be over

stop

make it stop

make it stop

let it be over

make it stop

make it stop

make it stop

make it stop...

eyes

burn out my eyes

'cause you despise

me, can't bear to see you

ears

plug up my ears

it hurts to hear

what i mean to you

tongue

tear out my tongue

hate what i've done

and what i've said to you

heart

rip out my heart

rip out my heart

let it be over

make it stop

make it stop

make it stop

make it stop...

once there was a time

everything was mine

but i threw it all away

little more each day

now i lose my mind

'cause i've come to find

you went and turned on me too

only one thing left to do...

make it stop

make it stop

make it stop

make it stop...

clocks

bust up the clocks

smash them with rocks

let it be over

sun

block out the sun

let it be done

let it be over

please

i'm on my knees

i've made my peace

let it be over

dead

cut off my head

that's what i said

let it be over

make it stop

make it stop

make it stop

make it stop...

eyes

burn out my eyes

burn out my eyes

let it be over

tongue

yank out my tongue

yank out my tongue

let it be over

ears

plug up my ears

plug up my ears

let it be over

heart

rip out my heart

rip out my heart

let it be over

burn out my eyes

plug up my ears

tear out my tongue

rip out my heart

make it stop

song - Your Eyes

Your Eyes...

stephanie loveless

Your eyes...

Your eyes sustain my life

Wish i...

Could dry them when you cry

Your touch...

Is like a junkie's fix

Each time...

I sink deeper in the mix

Your smile...

Prettier than the first sunrise

Your laugh...

Is enough to hypnotize

Your dreams...

Grow dusty on a shelf

It seems...

Always helping someone else

Your eyes!

Your eyes sustain my life

Your tears...

Your tears are always near

Alone...

So far away from home

Your love...

It heals my deepest cut

With you....

My wounds are all sewn shut

So kind...

You give and never take

You cause...

My heart to gently wake

Your scorn...

Wish i was never born

One frown...

And in despair i drown

Your eyes!

Your eyes sustain my life

Your eyes!

Your eyes sustain my life

Your eyes!

Your eyes sustain my life

Your eyes!

oh, oh oh oh...

Your Eyes...

stephanie loveless

Your eyes...

Your eyes sustain my life

Wish i...

Could dry them when you cry

Your smile...

Is enough to hypnotize

Your laugh...

Prettier than the first sunrise

Your touch...

Is like a junkie's fix

Each time...

I sink deeper in the mix

Your dreams...

Grow dusty on a shelf

It seems...

Always helping someone else

Your tears...

Your tears are always near

Alone...

So far away from home

So kind...

You give and never take

You cause...

My heart to gently wake

Your love...

It heals my deepest cut

With you...

My wounds are all sewn shut

Your scorn...

Wish i was never born

One frown...

And in despair i drown

Your eyes!

Your eyes sustain my life

Your eyes!

Your eyes sustain my life

Your eyes!

Your eyes sustain my life

Your eyes -- oh, oh oh oh oh oh...

Your eyes!

A Girl Like Me - political version

A Girl Like Me - revisited

i don't know when i've been more surprised

stolen elections really opened my eyes

i never thought our president would be a jerk like you

weapons of mass destruction never found

you bug the phones of every home in town

i never thought our president would be a jerk like you

democracy is just a fairy tale for jerks like you

patriot games are gonna drive me insane

nothing's gonna be the same

it's a bad new day now

economy is at an all-time low

except for all the weatlhy friends you know

i never thought our president would be a jerk like you

you want to start a new war every day

a heart attack for you is what i pray

i never though our president would be a jerk like you

Liar Liar - political version

Liar Liar

Liar, liar

Democracy's on fire

Impeach your ass, gonna get you fired

Before the casualties grow any higher

Liar, liar

The constitution's on fire

You said that you'd find weapons of mass destruction

While you give your rich friends another big deduction

You make the gas prices soar every single day

So you torture prisoners at Guantanamo Bay

Katrina kills and you take a vacation

You're the worst president we've had in our nation

Your war on terror has been a big disater

But turning surplus into deficit, of this you are a master

song - You Forgot About Me

You Forgot About Me

stephanie loveless

You forgot about me

Checking off your lists and making all your plans

You forgot about me...

Once upon a time i thought there was a place for me

All your dreams and plans included steffie

Least that's what i thought but now i see

Faraway eyes are focused on other things, not me

Such a busy girl, no time for me, no need...

Mom and dad, there was a time we were family

Let it slip away so far away yeah

Had to get away, so now you sing

Faraway eyes are focused on other things, not me

Such a busy girl, no time for us, no need...

You forgot about us

Checking off your lists and making all your plans

You forgot about us...

Stephanie, i know you have so many things to do

But i've given you my life so don't ignore me

All i want is just to have you here

Faraway eyes are focused on other things, not me

Such a busy girl, no time for Sue, no need...

You forgot about me, steffie!

Checking off your lists and making all your plans

You forgot about me...

Friday, February 17, 2006

steffie's world: 2.11.06

STEFFIE'S WORLD: 2.11.06

I. Little Steffie on TV!

II. Big Money/Wrong Gender :-)

III. Dad...And Shame

IV. Some happy news for your little girl!

V. 52 Things...

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Hello, Love Ones!

I. STEFFIE ON TV

Guess who they were talking about on TV last night...yup! Friends have told me they heard me mentioned in connection with tonight's 19th Annual Erotic Poetry & Music Fest at Alvins (5756 Cass, Detroit) (for which i am, astoundingly, the headliner).

If you caught this clip and remember any of the details, i'd love to know about it.

Good god -- it's not easy being an (undiscovered) SuperStar...Up till just a few hours ago, it looked like i would be walking to the show. You have no idea how many men (and couples) turned me down, when i asked them for an escort. And three or four committed at various times, only to back out.

i've driven the poor promoters of the show out of their mind; "i don't have a ride...oh now i do...oops now i don't anymore..." This is surely the last gig Sue Static will ever offer me. Soooooorry Sue!

Well, maybe i can make up for it with tonight's performance, which will be UNUSUAL to say the least! We hope to leave the jaws scraping the tilework.

God Bless Wendy Kahr for saving the day tonight! Come on down and enjoy the show, won't you?

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II. BIG MONEY/WRONG GENDER

The promoter, who wrote a couple days ago promising "big money" for a bunch of shows, called back to say, "i'm sorry, i thought you were a girl." :-)

Oh dear...well, i live as a woman every moment of every day, coming up on two years now. i have breasts and a girlish figure. And i'm pumping more estrogen in my body than the Miss America contest has combined...

...but i do NOT have a vagina (yet).

Which begs the question: If a man loses his penis, is he no longer a man?

i think he is. Don't you? And myself and plenty of others think that genitalia is a poor and unreliable method for determining gender.

The shows were, apparently, of a "sexy" nature. And you know how much >I<>

i would NEVER do that (unless, of course, you asked me to...)

Anyway, i think my little "third bulge" in front is cute, just darling! And, after the hormones, it really is no threat to anyone anymore. :-)

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III. DAD....AND SHAME

Thanks to all who responded with love and thoughtful advice about my once-again-dashed hopes for a family reunion. God knows i tried.

i'm rather certain about why things soured -- it's because i've been all over the radio, TV and newspapers the last few weeks. And THAT'S the part they have never been able to stomach. They hated it when it was "tom" running for Congress!

They've said many times that they can accept me being a disgusting sissy, just so long as i keep it in the closet where it belongs.

Oh, how delightful...:-)

But THIS is why there will never be a reunion with my family....because the whole crux of my rebirth is founded on the principle that i CANNOT go on with life being ashamed and embarrassed of myself.

Those days are over, and i am never, ever going back.

i have a birth defect, and it is one that society at large has a very difficult time with.

But that does NOT mean that >I<>

From now on, i'm going to be proud of myself. And if i am a transsexual -- that means i MUST be proud to be a transsexual.

So, as far as my family goes;

"Now it's time to say goodbye

No more tears left in my eye

What's the use in hanging on

From now on, when love is gone

What's the point in more of the same

When my name just causes pain

Empty hearts can sing no more, cry no more, feel no more..."

("Empty Hearts," from STEFFIE SINGS FOR HER SEX CHANGE)

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IV. HAPPY NEWS...

i can't talk about it for another week...but a long-stewing little problem is apparently going to be resolved in a very satisfactory way. It's been at the core of much of my depression of the last five months, and now -- finally -- a happy resolution is near at hand.

Whew!!!!

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V. 52 Things..............

http://www.nctequality.org/

52 Things You Can Do for Transgender Equality

Achieving our goal of transgender equality requires activism at the local, state and national levels. While NCTE focuses on federal policies, we strongly support and encourage the vital work of grassroots activists. Each week during 2006, we will feature an idea for action that you can take at a local level. Some will be challenging, some will be simple; all are effective ideas and we will include links, resources and thoughts to help you get started. Some are things you can do on your own, while others are ideas for local groups to work on. We hope that you will take on projects that spark your interest and that meet a need in your community as we work together for equality for all people.

#5 Invite your mayor or other elected official to address a trans group or town meeting

Okay, so maybe running for office isn’t for you, but it is critical that

trans voices be heard by our elected officials. After all, they do represent you. Why not invite the mayor, a legislator, city council member or other elected official to address a trans group, conference or gathering? You can ask them to speak at an already scheduled event or create a special town meeting for them to speak as well as hear concerns from the community.

If the elected official you are inviting has been supportive of transgender causes, consider how you might say thank you. For example, consider giving a certificate of appreciation or an award.

If your local politicians have not been supportive, think of ways to help them change their positions. Use the opportunity to educate them about the discrimination that trans people face and helping them learn accurate and positive information about their trans constituents. You want to inspire them to be courageous and open minded when dealing with our issues.

Remember, too, that people rarely change their positions because of direct confrontation; education works much better.

To invite an elected official, fax or mail a letter to their office,

requesting their presence. State clearly who you are, what group you

represent, what are you are asking from them, and briefly why you think

their presence will be important. Be clear about whether you have a firm

date in mind (for example, if you would like them to speak at an already

scheduled conference or a Day of Remembrance observance) or if you are

flexible about when this might take place. Be clear, too, about what you are asking (for example, would you like the person to give a 15 minute speech or sit down for an hour strategy session with community leaders?). Give plenty of lead time before you want to hold the event and remember that politicians have very busy schedules. Follow up with a phone call about a week after their offices receive the letter. Polite and persistent follow up is the most effective.

Be sure to publicize your event widely, both within our community and, if appropriate, to the media. Be as thorough as you can be in your set up, making sure that there are microphones, if needed, bottled water, and so on. Designate one person to meet your guest at the door and escort her or him to the front, and make sure that someone is prepared to introduce the elected official and to moderate questions, if needed.

Afterwards, send a thank you note to the politician and to any staff member who helped you with the arrangements. That will help you establish an on-going relationship with them.

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Hugs to all,

steffie

steffie's world: 2.11.06

STEFFIE'S WORLD: 2.11.06

I. Little Steffie on TV!

II. Big Money/Wrong Gender :-)

III. Dad...And Shame

IV. Some happy news for your little girl!

V. 52 Things...


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Hello, Love Ones!

I. STEFFIE ON TV

Guess who they were talking about on TV last night...yup! Friends have told me they heard me mentioned in connection with tonight's 19th Annual Erotic Poetry & Music Fest at Alvins (5756 Cass, Detroit) (for which i am, astoundingly, the headliner).

If you caught this clip and remember any of the details, i'd love to know about it.

Good god -- it's not easy being an (undiscovered) SuperStar...Up till just a few hours ago, it looked like i would be walking to the show. You have no idea how many men (and couples) turned me down, when i asked them for an escort. And three or four committed at various times, only to back out.

i've driven the poor promoters of the show out of their mind; "i don't have a ride...oh now i do...oops now i don't anymore..." This is surely the last gig Sue Static will ever offer me. Soooooorry Sue!

Well, maybe i can make up for it with tonight's performance, which will be UNUSUAL to say the least! We hope to leave the jaws scraping the tilework.

God Bless Wendy Kahr for saving the day tonight! Come on down and enjoy the show, won't you?

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II. BIG MONEY/WRONG GENDER

The promoter, who wrote a couple days ago promising "big money" for a bunch of shows, called back to say, "i'm sorry, i thought you were a girl." :-)

Oh dear...well, i live as a woman every moment of every day, coming up on two years now. i have breasts and a girlish figure. And i'm pumping more estrogen in my body than the Miss America contest has combined...

...but i do NOT have a vagina (yet).

Which begs the question: If a man loses his penis, is he no longer a man?

i think he is. Don't you? And myself and plenty of others think that genitalia is a poor and unreliable method for determining gender.

The shows were, apparently, of a "sexy" nature. And you know how much >I< would've hated that...i'm much too classy to go around behaving like some kind of sex object, and taking my clothes off of in front of a roomful of horny dudes.

i would NEVER do that (unless, of course, you asked me to...)

Anyway, i think my little "third bulge" in front is cute, just darling! And, after the hormones, it really is no threat to anyone anymore. :-)

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III. DAD....AND SHAME

Thanks to all who responded with love and thoughtful advice about my once-again-dashed hopes for a family reunion. God knows i tried.

i'm rather certain about why things soured -- it's because i've been all over the radio, TV and newspapers the last few weeks. And THAT'S the part they have never been able to stomach. They hated it when it was "tom" running for Congress!

They've said many times that they can accept me being a disgusting sissy, just so long as i keep it in the closet where it belongs.

Oh, how delightful...:-)

But THIS is why there will never be a reunion with my family....because the whole crux of my rebirth is founded on the principle that i CANNOT go on with life being ashamed and embarrassed of myself.

Those days are over, and i am never, ever going back.

i have a birth defect, and it is one that society at large has a very difficult time with.

But that does NOT mean that >I
From now on, i'm going to be proud of myself. And if i am a transsexual -- that means i MUST be proud to be a transsexual.

So, as far as my family goes;

"Now it's time to say goodbye
No more tears left in my eye
What's the use in hanging on
From now on, when love is gone
What's the point in more of the same
When my name just causes pain
Empty hearts can sing no more, cry no more, feel no more..."

("Empty Hearts," from STEFFIE SINGS FOR HER SEX CHANGE)

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IV. HAPPY NEWS...

i can't talk about it for another week...but a long-stewing little problem is apparently going to be resolved in a very satisfactory way. It's been at the core of much of my depression of the last five months, and now -- finally -- a happy resolution is near at hand.

Whew!!!!

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V. 52 Things..............

http://www.nctequality.org/

52 Things You Can Do for Transgender Equality

Achieving our goal of transgender equality requires activism at the local, state and national levels. While NCTE focuses on federal policies, we strongly support and encourage the vital work of grassroots activists. Each week during 2006, we will feature an idea for action that you can take at a local level. Some will be challenging, some will be simple; all are effective ideas and we will include links, resources and thoughts to help you get started. Some are things you can do on your own, while others are ideas for local groups to work on. We hope that you will take on projects that spark your interest and that meet a need in your community as we work together for equality for all people.

#5 Invite your mayor or other elected official to address a trans group or town meeting

Okay, so maybe running for office isn’t for you, but it is critical that
trans voices be heard by our elected officials. After all, they do represent you. Why not invite the mayor, a legislator, city council member or other elected official to address a trans group, conference or gathering? You can ask them to speak at an already scheduled event or create a special town meeting for them to speak as well as hear concerns from the community.

If the elected official you are inviting has been supportive of transgender causes, consider how you might say thank you. For example, consider giving a certificate of appreciation or an award.

If your local politicians have not been supportive, think of ways to help them change their positions. Use the opportunity to educate them about the discrimination that trans people face and helping them learn accurate and positive information about their trans constituents. You want to inspire them to be courageous and open minded when dealing with our issues.

Remember, too, that people rarely change their positions because of direct confrontation; education works much better.

To invite an elected official, fax or mail a letter to their office,
requesting their presence. State clearly who you are, what group you
represent, what are you are asking from them, and briefly why you think
their presence will be important. Be clear about whether you have a firm
date in mind (for example, if you would like them to speak at an already
scheduled conference or a Day of Remembrance observance) or if you are
flexible about when this might take place. Be clear, too, about what you are asking (for example, would you like the person to give a 15 minute speech or sit down for an hour strategy session with community leaders?). Give plenty of lead time before you want to hold the event and remember that politicians have very busy schedules. Follow up with a phone call about a week after their offices receive the letter. Polite and persistent follow up is the most effective.

Be sure to publicize your event widely, both within our community and, if appropriate, to the media. Be as thorough as you can be in your set up, making sure that there are microphones, if needed, bottled water, and so on. Designate one person to meet your guest at the door and escort her or him to the front, and make sure that someone is prepared to introduce the elected official and to moderate questions, if needed.

Afterwards, send a thank you note to the politician and to any staff member who helped you with the arrangements. That will help you establish an on-going relationship with them.

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Hugs to all,

steffie

steffie's world: 2.10.06

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* * * EROTIC POETRY & MUSIC FEST

Sat. Feb. 11, 8:30-2:00

Benefit for Paws With A Cause

22 acts, with your little girl HEADLINING :-)

Alvins, 5756 Cass Ave, Detroit



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I. "Big Money" for Your Little Girl?!?

II. Where Are The Boys When You Need Them?

II. I Need Help With My Web Site

IV. Family Ironies

V. One Happy Note


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I. BIG MONEY....hmmm...


Wow! A promoter just wrote, offering "big money" for a bunch of future shows! It's beyond my comprehension, truly.

Of course, i'm not new to the music biz and know enough to be
skeptical. But, considering the fact that i've never actually been paid
even once for a performance, i'd have been happy if he promised "very
little money"!

Actually, people were extremely generous at the house parties,
above and beyond buying the CDs. And i'm told that i will get $20 for
headlining the Erotic Poetry Fest on Saturday. But i will be donating it
right back for the cause.

All except a nickel, anyway -- just so from now on i can tell people i am a professional musician. :-)

Keep your fingers crossed for me, won't you?


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II. WHERE ARE THE BOYS?!?

Speaking of the Poetry Fest, i am the headlining act -- but i couldn't
find a ride to the show! i have a lunch date with Bill and an evening
date with Jake on Friday -- but i couldn't even get Quasimodo to escort me to one of my biggest concerts ever! It's all so weird...

Thankfully, Rick stepped forward at the last moment, sweetheart!

It's really going to be an outrageous show, by the way. You must come!

i've been such a good girl, keeping my clothes on for the JamRag Media event at Trixies, the house parties, the public release party, etc. But you're going to see a whole lot of me on Saturday!

And you might even like it. :-) i've been working out at an all-women's gym now. And i deliver our papers (Ferndale Friends) to 4,000 Ferndale homes on foot. The estrogen has gracefully been distributing extra amounts of fat on my body (women have a much higher ratio of body fat than men), but the exercise has helped keep it in the right places.

Well....the boys sure seem to like it, anyway!


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III. WEB SITE

Is anyone willing to help me set up a very basic, one-page web site for the CD (STEFFIE SINGS FOR HER SEX CHANGE)? It would be really great if people could order from the site using paypal or something. Please let me know.


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IV. FAMILY IRONIES

Little steffie on the Ralph Valdez Show...Damn! Well, i just found out his guest this week is none other than Burt freakin' Bacharach! Seriously. And the next week they were going to have Paul McCartney, but they dumped him to bring me back....

Okay...the Paul McCartney stuff was a bit of an exaggeration...

But it's so ironic -- my daddy would fall out of his shoes if he knew i'd been on the same program as Burt Bacharach, one of his biggest heroes. Dad always thought i had less than zero musical talent -- and he was right! It's really only been since the new year that people have begun to compliment my voice.

None of this comes naturally to me -- it is hard, hard work.

My poor neighbors: While i'm out there slinging Ferndale Friends at their door -- i'm always singing at the top of my lungs. Always. ESPECIALLY when i am down and depressed, which has really been the case the last three weeks.

Anyway -- hopes for a family reunion have utterly vanished. i wrote letters to all of them a few weeks ago (an unintended result of my own, different heartache). All of my letters were ignored (a trend these days), except the one to dad, who left a message on our machine. He even called me "stephanie!"

i was out of my mind with joy!!!

But my followup letter has, once again, merited stone-cold silence.

Would you be kind enough to look at it, below?!? i just can't figure out what i wrote which is so awful to have once again iced my chances to reunite with my family.


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V. ONE HAPPY NOTE

i've just met the nicest, new couple! Oh, god -- it couldn't have come at a better time. i've managed to utterly destroy a gorgeous relationship with friends who mean the world to me. An email came in today, saying "We have reached the end of the road." God help me, i felt like crawling under the rug.

But just then -- out of the blue -- Jim and Barb called! It's just astounding how these things have been happening. i find it increasingly difficult to hold on to my atheism.

They insisted that i pour my heart out to them. Poor dears...i blubbered into the phone like an idiot. (See Linda, i tooooold you...). And they put me back in shape sufficiently to go out and sling papers.

Most of the people on the swing sites just want to jump into bed. It is very typical for their profiles to read "no drama, please."

Oh darn. That doesn't leave much room for steffie...

And the couples...i really have the most overwhelming need to have a supportive female figure in my life. i mean, besides Sue -- i need a mother/sister figure. Actually, i need about 50, because so many of you already play that role for me, and it just isn't enough. But it is very, very difficult finding a couple where the woman is comfortable with a t-girl. Very rare indeed.

So has steffie learned her lesson this time? DON'T FALL IN LOVE WITH HER, STEFFIE!

We'll see...(but i'm betting against it).

At least this time, it's not a matter of having just lost my mother forever. Sue and i think that's why i latched on so tightly the last time.


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i hope my story is interesting! It seems important to document these most unusual experiences as they are happening.

Thank you for caring about me.

Bless you all, steffie


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(Readers: Any clues what i did wrong in this letter to once again get the silent treatment from him?!?!? sl)

Dad

i was SO happy to get your phone call yesterday! Thanks very much. You sounded great. i've been very concerned about your health, among other things.

i'd love to see you some time, thank you.

Well -- it will be a bit awkward. Daddies typically have a very hard time adjusting to male-to-female transsexual children. i've learned so much about the subject over the last two years. i will be very nervous, and surely you will be too. i'm scared to death about it, actually. And i REALLY don't want you to be shocked or anything like that.

Maybe we can get together some time next week, if it is okay with you. In the meantime, i am attaching a couple of photos so you can see what i look like these days. i've changed a bit!

i can hardly even remember what it was like being "tom." It all seems like a dream to me now, like it never really even happened. It never was me at all. When i see an old photo of "tom," it's as if i am looking at a picture of an old friend. It's all so very, very strange.

It took 44 years to find the courage to accept the truth but, like so many thousands of others, i REALLY was born into the wrong body. There are lots of intriguing scientific explanations for transsexualism. However, it is a recognized medical disorder, and accepted by almost all the experts today as just another kind of birth defect.

i've been diagnosed by two independent psychologists as suffering -- severely -- from Gender Identity Disorder. They have both determined that gender reassignment surgery is "medically necessary" in my case.

Unlike other "special girls," i haven't had the slightest inclination to return to living as a boy over the last two years. It just seems absurd to me now. i was never a boy, only an actress.

i do hope to have surgery one day, although it is far from likely because of the enormous costs. i have been undergoing hormone therapy for a year and a half now, and i am just ecstatic about it. It's a complete miracle, a dream come true. i should have started when i was eight.

Of course, at that age, the scientific consensus revolved around behavioral modification. Girls like me were given electro-shock therapy, etc., to try to "cure" us. Alas, it it did not work at all! The lesson is that one cannot change a girl into a boy, even through the infliction of physical pain and suffering.

And the medical community now understands that gender is a far more complex mystery than merely a matter of genitals. The scientists have found that girls like me have brain structures which are female, even though we have male genitalia. More specifically, my hypothalamus likely resembles Cindy's, not yours. It's just a simple fact.

Anyway -- no matter what people think -- it is something i have to live with for the rest of my life. i tried for four and a half decades to be a boy. It is obviously not going away. And the best and smartest thing i've ever done (other than marrying Sue) is to accept this truth about myself.

i hope this letter is helpful.

i am deeply sorry about the awful turmoil we've all suffered these last two years.

But i did not choose to be this way. NO ONE would choose to be a transsexual and go through this hell, believe me. Every day i face humiliation and discrimination from an ignorant and yet equally arrogant society which thinks it knows everything about God's Mysteries. Every day i struggle with misplaced, and horrible guilt about the trouble caused to you, Sue and others in my life. Every day i struggle, increasingly, with the dysphoria associated with the conflict between my body and mind.

Every day i wish i could have been born just a regular boy OR girl, instead of this.

i'm looking forward to seeing you soon. And i hope you will give my best wishes to Cindy, Tim, and the kids.

Always your child,

steffie

PS: Thank you SO MUCH for calling me "stephanie" on the phone. It really meant the world to me. :-)


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stephanie angeline loveless

steffie's world: 2.8.06

STEFFIE'S WORLD: 2-8-06


I. Erotic Poetry & Music Fest - Guess Who Is The "Star!"

II. WJIM Interview

III. Poetry Night @ Just 4 Us

IV. Sue

IV. Whiner

V. Family Reunion

V. 52 Things


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I. EROTIC POETRY & MUSIC FEST - "An eclectic celebration of the erotic arts all in one evening! Featuring poetry, music, art dance and comedy!"

This Sat Feb. 11, 8:30; Alvins, 5756 Cass, Detroit, WSU area

The Promoter, Sue Static, writes to steffie: "Please pick one more song to do for the show, as you are the star of the evening this fest!"

Damn! Little steffie, the "star?!?" i'm rather overwhelmed, and grateful as all hell. Your little girl's career has really taken off over the last few weeks! Sue is the one who lined up the WDET appearance, by the way.

According to Sue: "This is one of the longest running festivals in Detroit. Everyone is welcome who has a sense of humour and wants to have fun! Proceeds go to a good cause- Paws with a Cause- a MI-based non profit who train guide dogs for the disabled.

See the very end of this email for the complete press release.


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II. WJIM INTERVIEW

i had the most lovely time on the air with Lisa and Dave, the drive-time hosts on WJIM-FM. In fact, i would say they are among the most sensitive and intelligent drive-time deejays around. Not a single sex joke -- they asked very good questions about my transsexuality, and approached the subject with great compassion and respect. i joked with Dave that he should be a therapist instead, and he said he'd better get mean and puerile quick or he'd be out of his job!

The only downside is that they insisted i sing, a capella, a couple verses of Treat Me Like A Lady. Good god, i had just woken up! Oh well -- they want a copy of the CD so they can play the track on the show.


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III. POETRY NIGHT @ JUST 4 US

Fri Feb 24, 7:00 pm; 211 W 9 Mile, Ferndale

After my public release party there last Friday, Rose has invited me back to read some material for an upcoming poetry night. What a sweetheart! Hope to see you there.

After that -- SPAGfest, the burlesque show on March 1 at the Labyrinth!!!


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IV. SUE

Blessedly, Sue has gotten a new job! Hooray! It's considerably better than the one she's suffered in recent weeks. The pay, working conditions, level of dignity, level of risks involved -- all are much, much better with her new position.

However, she is too principled to just quit her other job. They paid for her three-week training and certification, and she just doesn't want to walk away now.)

So for the next few weeks, she is doing both! In four and a half hours, she will begin a 35-hour shift (including her class at OCC tonight) without sleep!

Needless to say, i am completely opposed to it. But we both look forward to just a few weeks down the road when she will feel good about quitting the first job.

Not many people on the planet like Sue...


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V. WHINER?!?!?

My precious friend Linda Flynn has, in the last week, called me both a "drama queen" and a "whiner." You're gonna' pay for that, Linda! She says she wants to teach me B.I.T.C.H. Lessons (Being In Total Control of Herself).

Okay, but you might be sorry, Linda! You might wish you could turn me back into a whiner, instead of a B.I.T.C.H...

Seriously, i reject her assessment and insist i am NOT a whiner. i am an idiot, and that's something entirely different.

Truly, no one seems to fall in love as hard as me. Or as often. i so like the boys in my life -- but i fall in love with every girl i meet. Sometimes hard. And, at least three times now, waaaaaay too hard. Ralph Valdez, the WDET host, said that Sue and i are both hopeless romantics, and i think i like that a little better than "whiner," Linda....

But you are both wrong. i'm an idiot! No intelligent person would suffer so hopelessly, helplessly over a lost friend. Even as i have received the most wonderful breaks with my music, i've spent much of the last three weeks in unendurable despair.

"Unendurable" is a word not chosen carelessly.


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VI STEFFIE'S FAMILY REUNION

Dad's message on our answering machine got my hopes up. But it's not going to happen.

i tried. i really, really tried.

Not that it makes me feel an inch better.

They want their son and brother back. Well....i know how it feels to hopelessly long for someone who never existed. (see above)


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VII. 52 THINGS


http://www.nctequality.org/

52 Things You Can Do for Transgender Equality


"Achieving our goal of transgender equality requires activism at the local, state and national levels. While NCTE focuses on federal policies, we strongly support and encourage the vital work of grassroots activists. Each week during 2006, we will feature an idea for action that you can take at a local level. Some will be challenging, some will be simple; all are effective ideas and we will include links, resources and thoughts to help you get started. Some are things you can do on your own, while others are ideas for local groups to work on. We hope that you will take on projects that spark your interest and that meet a need in your community as we work together for equality for all people."

#4 Run for Office

Some of the ways you can work for transgender equality are easy while others are more challenging. This week’s idea is one that could turn your life upside down, but imagine the good that you could do as an elected official.

Our government is one that is of the people, by the people and for the
people. Trans people have a right to run for office and the right to be well represented by our elected officials. Those who serve in political offices are in a position to make a difference in people’s lives, introduce legislation that can improve the lives of their constituents, and set an inclusive agenda. Elected officials have an opportunity to be a part of the decision making mechanisms of our country.

Transgender people have successfully run for office. For example, Michelle Bruce, who is open about being intersex and transgender, currently serves on the City Council in Riverdale, Georgia. Other trans people have held office as well.

Running for office can be an important statement and a worthwhile
experience. NCTE Board of Advisors member Amanda Simpson, who was a
candidate for state representative in Arizona in 2004 commented, “By running for office, you are able to engage the general public about the issues that are important to them and they can begin to relate to transgender people as people who are fully part of the same community and have the same struggles and hopes as everyone else.”

If you are interested in running for office, or in supporting those who do, an important resource is the Victory Fund, which has endorsed and supported transgender candidates. You can find them at The Victory Fund and click on the button marked, “Run for Office.” They hold regular trainings for potential candidates; this year, the trainings are being held on March 9-12 in Louisville, Kentucky, June 15-18 in Washington, DC and November 15- 18 in Orlando, Florida. They have had at least one transgender participant at each of the trainings that they have held in the past two years and see this as a very positive sign that more trans people will be running for office in the coming years. If you are even considering running for office or supporting someone who is, make sure you check out the trainings.

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With love to all my precious friends!!!


Hugs, steffie

stephanie angeline loveless

http://steffieloveless.blogspot.com

Founder/Agitator/Gender Terrorist
loveless @jamrag.com

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Don't Let Your Dreams Get Dusty!

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Steffie's Performances -

* Sat. Feb. 11: Erotic Poetry & Music Fest, Alvins, Detroit

* Fri. Feb. 28, 7 pm: Poetry Night at Just 4 Us, Ferndale

* Sat. March 4: Spag Burlesque Show, Labyrinth, Detroit

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Order Steffie's debut CD, STEFFIE SINGS FOR HER SEX CHANGE! $10 + $2 postage, checks/MO payable to TGMedia, Box 20076, Ferndale MI 48220. Eight original songs, and yes -- the proceeds will pay for my surgery. Special gift for the first 100 orders. Each CD is hand-numbered and autographed by steffie.

“...chords are perfectly joined with lyrics...rich musical themes throughout -- an entirely engaging and deeply felt meditation." Dale Glabach, music theorist, composer

“...an inspiring and honest voice to all who quest sunshine in a political midnight.” Bill Opalicky

“...her latest songs and style truly reflect her great passion and the uncommon courage to speak her heart and mind...” Dennis Canfield

“...Anything touched by Stephanie Loveless is magical, endearing, honest and heartfelt. Your reward by purchasing this CD is two-fold: Some kickass spunky tunes and a chance to thank her for her indiscriminate passion and drive for equality in all humanity." Stephanie Vollick

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* Help Bring Universal Health Care to Ferndale! loveless@ jamrag.com

* Green House Gender Dignity Project
- TVenture: TG employment project: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/tventure/
- TGMedia: TG publishing project: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/tgmedia/

* WNFC/MMWC/Amherst Alliance/Media Democracy: contact loveless@ jamrag.com

* Trans Advisory Hotline of America 1-877-427-3230

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THE 19TH EROTIC POETRY & MUSIC FESTIVAL IS COMING!



The infamous event known as the “Erotic Poetry & Music Festival” is now in its’ 19th year. The festival is one of the longest running festivals in Detroit. The festival is an eclectic celebration of erotica featuring erotic poetry, art, music and dance performances, and comedy added to the mix this year.

There is an “open mic” portion of the night for audience members to participate in the show. It promises to be an evening you won’t forget!

The date is: SATURDAY, FEBRUARY 11, 8 pm, 18 &over are welcome. Admission is $8. Partial proceeds benefit the non-profit organization Paws with a Cause, who provide and train leader dogs for the disabled. The event will be held at Alvin’s, located at 5756 Cass Ave. (313-831-4577) on WSU campus, the venue has hosted many past festivals.

Music and Dance performances by:

CAUSING A SCENE

SILENT VIOLET

ANN HOLDREITH

LAUREN CHIASSON-‘The barefootpoet”

STEPHANIE LOVELESS

BRUCE BRYSON

THE IMPALER

Poetry by:

CINDI ST.GERMAIN

JIMMY DOOM

VIC TOLEDO

SCOTTY BOMAN

ANNIE HOUSTON

KELLY KALLS

MARC MAURUS

ELLEN HILDRETH

TUKA

SEAN KILPATRICK

JASON FREER

IAN LEE LAMB

AUNTIE BABS

PAUL KINGSTON

Comedy by: MATT MCCLOWRY & PETE WEISS

Your hosts: THE IMPALER & PETER SCHORN

Erotic Art on display and for sale by: JEFF HOCKING

Sexy wares by: AMY FOR YOUR PLEASURE & PICKLELILLY CREATIONS

Erotic literature by: MONKS HOUSE PRESS



For more information on the event please call Sue Static @ 313-886-7860 or check out www.staticrecords.com/shows

"Don't Let Your Dreams Get Dusty"


NO COPYRIGHT 2004 stephanie loveless
loveless@jamrag.com
Box 20076, Ferndale MI 48220